The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 55

COLT POV

I got us each a plate of food left over from breakfast and sat at the table in our room waiting for Freya. She took longer than I expected. I could feel that she was feeling nervous, but knowing she felt that way and not knowing why was really getting to me.

Sitting there thinking of everything that could be going on was not making it any better. I could smell her when she walked into the house, knowing she was here relieved my panic a little bit.

She walked in the door and I tried my very hardest to not act like I was worried or concerned. It didn’t work, she knew right away.

“Been sitting here thinking of all the possible reasons I could have taken so long, haven’t you?” She asked with a little giggle.

I rubbed the back of my neck smirking at her, “Only a few weeks with me and you know me already.” I didn’t want to press her, I was planning on not even asking but I couldn’t help myself. “So, umm. What’s going on? Are you okay?”

She giggled, “Yeah. I just have something to tell you.”

My stomach dropped.

She put a pair of small shoes on the table as she sat down. “I went for a walk trying to figure out how I felt about this and I found myself in the shop. I saw these and realized that I think I’m pretty excited that we’re going to be parents.” her eyes instantly filled with tears and she was smiling.

“Holy shit!” I started laughing. I scooped her in my arms and spun her around. She started giggling.

“I take it you’re happy about that.” she said. I looked at her beautiful face dripping the tears that were pooling in those beautiful green eyes just seconds ago, I wiped the tears and crashed my lips to hers.

I could feel the tears streaming down my face now. She pulled away, “I love that you’re happy, but I still have to breathe.” she laughed.

“I’m sorry.” I laughed, “I’m just in shock, this is the best week of my life Freya!” I kissed her again but gently this time. “I love you so much. I can’t wait to meet our child.”

She looked at me like she had something to say, “What is it?” I asked feeling way too happy to think anything could blow this moment.

“Well, there might be more than one.” she said, almost sounding more like a question.

“What makes you say that? Isn’t it too early to tell?” I asked, I may be a man but even I know that they can’t hear the heart beat until about five weeks and well, we haven’t even known each other for five weeks.

“Definitely too early, but the goddess…” She paused having a hard time figuring out how to say what she wanted. “When I was with her she was trying to tell me that I’m pregnant, she kept saying my body is using all its energy to take care of all of us, and she would talk about our children, well at the time I thought she meant future children, saying pups. Always plural.” she shrugged her shoulders, “I’m not fluent in goddess or anything, but I think it means there’s more than one.”

Well s**t if today isn’t getting better and better. I can’t wait to find out!

“I have love to go around baby, I don’t care how many there are I’m just happy I get to experience the best parts about life with you!” I said grabbing her hand and sitting her on my lap.

I wish my parents were here. They’d be so happy. I always get this bitter taste in my mouth when I think of them, not because of them they were amazing parents, excellent pack leaders, everything I pray I am with our kids. My mom was killed by a human hunter. Had no idea what he was doing, it wasn’t even a season for hunting anything. My father killed him within seconds but he shot my mom before my father could get to him.

I started feeling sad thinking about the past alphas of Big Sky. Every one of them took their own lives after losing their Luna’s. My father used to talk about it like it was a curse none of us ever heard about. Every Luna gave birth to the next Alpha and at some point thereafter they died. My mom was killed when I was 14, my dad took his own life within the week.

I can’t bare the thought of losing Freya. I understand fully why my father did what he did. We slowly die when our mate dies, we’re one soul and when we’re one soul and one dies it’s literally half of you dying and you can’t survive without the other half.

Sometimes it can take months, but I’ve never heard of it being longer than six months. Imagining a single day without her breaks my heart.

“Why are you sad Colt?” she asked, concerned. I shook the thoughts out of my head.

“I’m sorry my love, I was just thinking of how happy my parents would be right now.” I smiled.

She looked at me very lovingly for a second then she looked like she remembered something. “Oh, we’re not telling anyone until this spell is back in place.” she added.

“Kind of a hard secret to koop, Freya” I looked at her wondering why she wants to wait

“I don’t know what we’re going to run into during all of this. I don’t want our possible enemies to know, and I don’t want anyone to fret over me while we’re trying to get this handled i didnt even want to tell you yet, but I figured this isn’t really something I can keep from my mate” she said.

I guess I can understand her thoughts on that

“Fine, but you will obey me if I tell you to do something or not to do something to protect you and our littles.” I demanded. I will not accept anything other than a yes on this, she’s my entire family right now and that little or those littles are our packs future,

“Yes Alpha.” she stood and said with a mocking bow, “I will trust your judgement, Colt but please remember that I know my body and can feel how things are affecting me. I’m only agreeing because I know you’ll never let anything happen to us,” she kissed me.

“Let’s go find my mom and get this damn haze over with so I can enjoy the better parts of being pregnant,” she whispered against my lips,

I love hearing that.