The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 10
Lauren
My phone rings for the hundredth time. It was Darren calling me and it was starting to piss me off. Can’t he get the fucking memo that I didn’t want to talk to him.
I sigh. Then hang up. He has been calling regularly. Since that day Sebastian kidnapped me. He kept calling even when I blatantly refused to pick up.
“Who keeps on calling you?” Claire asks curiously.
It was a day after Mason’s successful surgery. We were all happy when we received the news. When the doctors said the tumor had been removed successfully. That Mason was going to be okay and we could take him home in two weeks.
I had invited Claire out for a late lunch. Now that Mason was out of danger. I felt that she needed a break. Some time to breathe and relax. Which she hasn’t been able to do since Mase was diagnosed.
“It’s just Darren…the idiot doesn’t want to take a fucking hint” I reply in irritation.
Every time I think of him, I get mad. I get so angry that I want to break something. Specifically his nose. It’s because of him that I was in this shit. If only he’d loved me. If only he had thought with his head instead of his dick.
Beneath my anger and bitterness. There’s pain. The same pain that still has a fist around my heart. Even after a year of not seeing him. The pain is still there. Still ripping me apart, piece by piece. I fucking hate that I haven’t healed. Hate that he still has this much power over me.
“Maybe he wants to talk to you about Krystal” She suggests.
I look at her in disbelief. Wondering why she would even suggest that. They both hated me. Krystal had even said that I was no longer her mother.
My face must have registered my doubt because she added quickly. “Krystal hasn’t been herself the past few months. She tries to hide it, but I’m a mother so I notice. I honestly think she needs you. She needs her mom”
Worry starts building in my core. I push it down because there’s just no way Krystal needed me. Like I said, she hated me and she had Darren.
Besides, how can I be of help to her? I wasn’t in a good place right now. I’m afraid that she’ll see who I’ve become and she will end up hating me more. Or worse, I lose control and hurt her.
I honestly doubt her opinion of me has changed. My plan to try and fix things with her once I was mated to Sebastian included forcing things. Pushing to be in her life. To be involved as her biological mother. That plan has to wait though. Till I’m sure she’s not in danger with me in her life.
“Maybe you’re right and maybe you’re not. Either way I can’t be a mother to her right now. I’m in a dark place Clair so I doubt I can be of help. If anything I will just make things worse” I whisper.
Averting my eyes so she doesn’t see the battle inside me. A battle of good versus bad. Light versus darkness.
“What are you hiding from me Renny? Don’t think I haven’t noticed”
I want to tell her so bad. I want to be honest. To seek comfort from her. To have her tell me that everything will be okay, but I can’t tell her. She’s already dealing with so much. The last thing she needs is knowing how truly broken I am.
I’m about to lie to her when my phone rings. I rush to pick it up. Without so much as looking at the Id. Just so I can avoid this conversation.
“Hello?”
“Get ready this evening. I’ll be coming to pick you up for dinner” Sebastian’s deep voice comes through.
I immediately get irritated at him. What’s with this man and ordering me around? Like I’m his omega bitch. I want to tell him exactly where he can shove his dinner plans but I notice Claire looking at me.
After I got in the car with Sebastian, we drove in silence. He seemed lost in thought and still a little pissed. It took almost forty five minutes to get to my cottage where he dropped me off and without saying anything else. Drove off.
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I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....