The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 121
Mayra.
I wake in my bedroom disoriented for a while. That is until I remember that Raya forced another shift yesterday.
I breathe a sigh of relief when I discover that I wasn’t covered in blood this time. Every time she shifts I’m afraid that she’s out there killing humans. The hate that she harbored for them was in loads. I think if she could have her way then she would destroy the entire human race.
Wondering how I was going to keep my walls up and strong. I head to the bathroom. The last thing I needed was Raya drawing the attention of the elders and of Ren.
Whether I liked it or not, she is the goddess’ executioner. If things got out of hand, Ren would have to kill me even though we were friends. Her loyalty to the goddess came first and we all know the goddess will get rid of anyone who endangered our secret and risked exposing us to humans.
“Raya…” I reach out tentatively through my mental blocks.
She doesn’t answer me. Never have I ever felt so alone in this. We should be helping each other to heal. To move forward but all she does is bring me down. She tears into me and makes me feel worthless. I know I can’t blame her fully, she isn’t well but if only she would allow me to help her then I believe that things would fall into place.
When I’m done showering, I leave the bathroom. Just as I was picking my clothes for the day something catches my eye. It was out of place because I don’t remember putting anything on my bedside table.
I approach it with apprehension. Part of me wants to ignore it but I can’t. The same dread that filled me yesterday when I found the note fills me now.
When I get closer I realize that its pictures. I pick them up. If this was a movie, everything would have happened in slow motion. A gasp leaves my lips when I look at them.
Picture after picture of myself assaults me. It was from yesterday when I received the note, to when I woke up from the nightmare, to when Raya took control. They continue almost as if they were documenting what happened the entire night.
Raya running through the forest, the crazed look that was etched to her face, when she came back to the room and shifted. Finally there was a picture of when she shifted back to human, me lying on the floor naked and then to me when I woke up.
I drop the pictures and search the room but nothing was out of place. Sniffing the air, I try to smell if there was an odd scent but there isn’t. The only whiff I got was my own scent.
I start backing away from the picture. Confused and on edge. I was now sure that I had a stalker.
“Raya…” I called her again. This time desperately, my voice shaking.
She was the only one who could help me now. We couldn’t go with this to Sebastian. I didn’t want them to know.
“What is it…can’t you see I’m trying to sleep” she snarls at me, bearing her fangs, her lips pulled back.
Going to my closet, I pick an outfit mindlessly and put it on, before starting to pace the room.
“We have a problem…don’t know if you know this but someone is stalking us”
“That’s not a ‘we’ problem, it’s a ‘you’ problem…I don’t give a fuck if someone is stalking you, they can kill you for all I care”
It shouldn’t have hurt but it does. It hurts so freaking bad. I know it was my stubbornness that got us captured but she behaves like I wasn’t there.
She forgets that everything that happened, the torture, the rape, the experiments. They all happened to me. Not her. She behaves like the roles were reversed.
“You don’t mean that and besides, you forget that if I die, then you die too” I tell her softly. Trying to fight the emotion that was clogging my throat.
She snorts and looks at me in disgust. “Then good riddance, at least I would be free from you”
With that she forces me out of her mind and draws up her own mental block. I fall on the bed completely defeated. I hated that there was this big gap between us that she wouldn’t let me fix.
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I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....