The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 124

I was a nervous wreck as I prepared for my date with Darren. The session with Alice yesterday painted some things into perspective.

A large part of me wanted to give it a try with Darren.

I took a peek into what my future looked like if I pushed him away. I didn’t like it all. It was lonely, sad and cold. That’s not what I wanted for myself or Raya.

I still preferred long sleeved dresses. So today I was wearing another one. This time though it was red instead of black.

“I can’t believe you’re going on another fucking date with him” Raya growls, popping into my mind.

She has been silent these past few days and I was grateful. Right now though, I wanted her to go back to where she had been hiding. She came out because she wanted to make trouble. I couldn’t allow that.

“There’s nothing wrong with going out with Darren”

“Really?” she asks sarcastically. “Because from where I’m standing everything is wrong. The dates, the sex, the feelings…Everything is fucking wrong”

She was breathing hard. Indicating that she was about to lose control.

Fuck do I miss my Raya. She wasn’t always like this. The Raya I know. The one I got since I was thirteen was kind, sweet, gentle and thoughtful. She never said anything mean to me. She was my bestfriend.

The Raya in my mind now was completely different. It’s like she flipped a switch and turned everything good about herself to bad. She was mean, angry, bitter and always lashed at me every chance she got.

“Please stop it Raya, don’t try to ruin this for me like you did last time” I beg her.

I was hoping that deep inside her there was still some good left. That she still loved me enough to let me have tonight.

She gives me a wolfish smirk. An evil one at that. “Oh but I plan to make it a disaster…it will be the worst date you’ve ever gone to”

“Raya…” I plead while taking my purse.

I leave my room and head downstairs. Ren wasn’t there so I breathe a sigh of relief and get out. The night was warm and it promised a fantastic time ahead. That is if Raya doesn’t ruin things for me like she promised.

I get into my car and start driving. Not wanting to witness the knowing looks from Ren, I had asked Darren not to pick me up. We were meeting at a certain restaurant instead.

“Will you stop pacing…you’re giving me a headache” I snap at Raya, thirty minutes into the drive.

She pauses for a second then continues. As if I had not said anything. My hands on the steering wheel tightens in frustration.

“I told you I was going to make this night a nightmare…if I can’t have my happiness then neither can you” she snarls, baring her teeth at me. “You took everything from me and now I’ll do the same. You’ll never get your happy ever after as long as I’m still your wolf”

I want to say I’m shocked by her words and the bitterness coating her voice, but I am not. That doesn’t mean that it still doesn’t fucking hurt.

“I didn’t take anything away from you, Raya. Remember we are one. What’s mine is yours and vice versa”

Her eyes narrow into slits. Glowing a bright yellow. Hidden behind them is a hint of madness. It’s when she gets like this that she scares me. Because an unhinged wolf like Raya is a very dangerous wolf.

“Yes you did!” she screams. Her shrill voice reverberating through my skull. Causing a painful migraine and making me almost lose control of my car.

“You took everything from me. The first thing you took was ten years of my life when you refused to heed to my warning. We were caught and held prisoner for ten fucking years. I lost my friends and family. I could have been mated during that time and had children. It’s because of you that I lost my freedom. And as if that wasn’t enough when we got free you took my away my chance at happiness by rejecting My mate”

She was breathing hard. I could feel the waves of anger and anguish rolling off her. Her hatred for me is at the center of her emotions.

Since I was five minutes away from the restaurant, I decide to park my car to the side. The last thing I wanted was to get into an accident.

“Sebastian and Fang were already in love with Ren and her wolves. There was nothing to be done about it” I try to explain.

“You could have fought for them. They are our mates not hers…but being the selfish little bitch you are, you just had to take away my only ray of hope”

Her lips curl in disgust as she looks at me. I’m fucking sure that if she could kill me with her bare hands she would gladly do it and not even flinch. I let the insult slide as I continue to try and reason with her.

“Do you think it would have been that easy? He was going to reject us or have you forgotten that little piece of information.” I take a deep breath and try to calm both of us down. “I did what I thought was best”