The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 56
Darren.
Fuck I can’t believe her. I can’t believe that she would go back to that bastard after everything he has done. It’s not that I deserved her, but I thought she would have better sense than that.
She refused to forgive me or come back to me. Yet the moment she was cleared of all charges she ran back to him. I don’t know how she was able to prove her innocence but it still annoyed me that she chose him.
I believed her when he didn’t. I was even working on getting evidence to prove she wasn’t a killer. Yet she fucking ran back to him.
What was it about Sebastian that women fucking loved? First he took Miranda from me and now he has taken Lauren.
I just don’t get what he has that I don’t. Sure he is an alpha but so am I. He’s considered good looking and wealthy.
As far as I know I am not a poor ogre. So what was it about him that made every woman I have wanted prefer him?
I hated this. Hated that he once again took something that belongs to me. Angry, I take my empty glass. I was about to pour myself another drink when my office door opened. Brent and my dad walked in.
I moved to the pack house a few weeks ago. I couldn’t stand to stay in the same house that had so many memories of Lauren. It tore me apart that I had been weak and because of that I lost a good woman.
“Seriously Darren, for how long are you going to drink yourself to a stupor?” Brent asks in concern.
It was good to see someone who was actually concerned about me. My parents don’t seem to care. All the do is nag me and question everything I do as if I was a fucking child.
“Till Lauren comes back to me” I mutter unintelligently.
I hear my father scoff. “As if she would ever come back to you. Especially with how you’re behaving now. You’ve basically become useless.”
I fist my hand and grind my teeth at his jab.
While my relationship with my parents has been deteriorating. Theirs with Lauren has been flourishing. My mom doesn’t shut up about how good Lauren is. Or how she brings Krystal and Miranda’s son for visits and so on. How she was a perfect daughter. It was fucking nauseating.
“You have to pull through, man. Stay away from the fucking bottle” This comes from Brent.
I sigh in defeat. I feel so used and pathetic. Every single time I remember how I treated Lauren, I fucking hate myself.
I did that thinking I had a chance with my mate. A chance with the perfect woman for me. I was lying to myself because Miranda turned out to be a venomous snake.
Lauren was right. All the years I said I loved her, I lied. Because how can you love someone while you’ve locked away a part of yourself? I didn’t give her my all.
Didn’t give her all my heart. I held hers in my hands and instead of cherishing it. I crashed it. That’s what pains me most. That I didn’t value her or see her worth until Miranda’s true colors were revealed.
“What’s the use? Like daddy dearest said, I doubt she will ever come back. I lost her Brent and the sad part is I have no one else to blame but myself”
I slump on the chair feeling dejected. The pain that has become familiar and the pangs of regrets consume. Threatening to swallow me whole. I rub my chest trying to ease the ache that was there.
“Even so, you still have people who care for you. You have Krystal who looks up to you. Isn’t she worth you pulling your head out of your ass? Don’t you love her enough to give her a better version of yourself?” Dad asks me gently. Showing me his softer side.
She did deserve it and I do love her, but I just didn’t know how to let go of Lauren. I thought my life was Miranda but these past few weeks since everything went down.
I realized I was wrong. Lauren always owned my heart. I just didn’t realize it until it was too late.
Comments
The readers' comments on the novel: The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren)
I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....