The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 90
“Hey” I murmur a bit unsure of myself.
It’s a week after Valery was executed and things have been settling in well. At least on my side that is.
I was worried for Luke and Lilly because they completely shut down. Refusing to acknowledge that their mother ever existed. They even walk out of the room when someone mentions her.
They refuse to talk to anyone about how they’re feeling. That’s definitely not good because for them to ignore the topic of their mother means that they feel something.
They need to confront their feelings instead of hiding or ignoring it. I have been there. I know ignoring your pain doesn’t make it go away. It actually makes it hurt more.
“Hey” he tells me in a deep controlled voice.
He was standing on the balcony. His eyes staring at the endless ocean. His muscles leaden with tension. I wanted to offer him comfort but I don’t know if he would let me.
“Are you okay Luke…we’re heading back in a day or two and I wanted to make sure you’re okay before I leave” I tell him.
Feeling a bit worn out and tired. I take a seat in the nearby chair and wait for him to speak.
“You’re going back? I thought you would stay. That you and Sebastian would take over the pack”
His voice catches but he clears his throat. Probably trying to get rid of the emotion.
“Why would we do that? I may have found my family here but this is not my home” I was genuinely confused.
“You’re the first born so the Alpha title is yours by birthright” he mumbles.
I watch him. Study him. Was this the reason why he had been cold to me since the truth came out? He was afraid I would take the Alpha position from him.
“Is that what has you so worried and tense?” I needed to confirm first before jumping into any conclusion.
“Part of it”
I sigh. “Come take a seat Luke”
“I don’t really feel like sitting down” he said instead.
“And I wasn’t really asking…so come and take a damn seat”
He must have heard the edge in my voice because he heaves a breath then comes and sits down next to me.
The moment he does, I turn to face him and stare straight into his eyes.
“I want you to get one thing clear because after this we will never talk about again” I begin. “I don’t want the alpha position, I am content being Sebastian’s Luna so the position of the alpha remains yours.”
“But…” he begins but I cut him off.
“There is no buts just what I say. You can remain the alpha and you have all my blessings. Besides, do you honestly think the pack would be comfortable with me? I am basically a stranger to them and so is Sebastian. In light of all the things that have happened, they need stability, they need the alpha that they have known. What they don’t need is more changes”
I watch as he lets my words sink in. For the first time I see vulnerability in his eyes.
“But what if the pack rejects me as the Alpha. Valery was responsible for some of their family member’s deaths. She has caused so much damage and I am the one left to deal with it. I am bound to receive backlash for her actions”
See what I meant when I said he doesn’t acknowledge his mother.
“Then you will deal with it like the Alpha you are and are meant to be, okay? It’s in your blood to lead them and if you can show them who you are they will take your lead and follow. Show them your heart and prove to them that you’re nothing like your mother. Earn their trust again”
He leans back on the chair almost tiredly. “It’s not that easy”
“It definitely isn’t, but won’t it be worth it in the end?”
I leave the question out there for him to decide. The ball was in his court and only he can decide if he’s willing to withstand the backlash he may or may not receive.
We are silent for a couple minutes as he makes his decision. Even if he decides that he doesn’t want to deal with what was to come, I still wouldn’t take the alpha position. My life wasn’t here. I could always visit and I plan to do that but I can’t live here.
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Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....
I absolutely love Sebastian and Lauren’s story! I wish it didn’t end ?...