Sebastian.
I take a sip of the amber liquid as I stare at the woman that has completely taken over my life.
She’s there in every thought. Every breath. And every beating of my heart. Her scent surrounds me and her beauty disarms me.
When we signed the contract, it was supposed to be easy. Get our revenge on the two people that made a fool out of us and then separate. I wasn’t supposed to get addicted to her. I wasn’t supposed to have any feelings towards her.
She wasn’t even my type for fucks sake yet that didn’t stop me from wanting her. My entire being craves to please her. To make her happy. To protect her. I have never felt this strongly for any other woman. I wasn’t ever planning to feel this way to any woman after my mate died.
“You don’t just feel strongly for her Bash. It goes deeper than that” Fang pops in my head.
“I know where you’re headed, Fang. I care for her but I’m not in love with her”
There was just no way I was. I don’t do love. Sure she has managed to shatter every rule I have but that doesn’t mean it’s because I love her.
“Are you sure about that? Are you sure you even know what the meaning of love is? In my opinion I'd say that you don’t. You wouldn’t recognize love even if it were to plow through you” he mumbles in irritation.
Just like me, Fang is also smitten by Red’s wolves and Red herself. He wants them for himself. I doubt he would ever let her go and neither would I.
The thought of someone else having her drives me to the brink of insanity. I want her by my side always because she is mine. I would be damned if another man gets her.
“And that should be you first fucking clue…That you don’t want anyone else to have. If it was just something physical between you two, do you fucking think you would react so crazily at the thought of her with someone else? Loving another man?” he asks.
“By the goddess Bash, the fact that she may still be in love with her bastard ex makes you want to go on a rampage. We’ve never reacted like that with Miranda, even after finding out that she was fucking other men”
“I’m not in love with her Fang…drop the damn subject” I growl.
He sighs as if I’m a difficult person to deal with. “Who are you trying to convince? You’re lying to yourself and that may come to bite you one day. My advice, be truthful with yourself before you ruin one of the best things that has ever happened to us”
He shuts himself and I am left alone. His words still ringing in my mind. Was he right? Was I in love with Red?
My eyes turn to the woman in question. She’s asleep and just like with the past couple of weeks she’s restless. Her eyes are moving rapidly behind her closed lids.
She keeps shifting on the bed. Her breathing is hard. Her forehead is scrunched up in what is probably pain. Small whimpers escape her lips and the sheet is balled in her tight fists.
I hate seeing her like this. Seeing her in so much pain. Seeing the fatigue in her eyes and not being able to do anything to ease what is happening to her. It fucking tears me to pieces every time she wakes up screaming in terror.
I talked to Sylvia and she told me that there is nothing to do except to be prepared. That I should always keep my warriors on call. Because when the time comes we will need them.
Comments
The readers' comments on the novel: The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren)
Did a teenager write this? I wanted to like it but it’s overly dramatic and the character arc is non-existent....
I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...