The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 106
106.
“You have to wake up darling…I don’t think I can’t live without you. I didn’t realize this before but I’m only sane with you around. With you by my side. I know it may sound cheesy but you’re my heart so how will I survive without you?” I ask her.
It has been close to two weeks since the accident. Red was taken off the machines but she still hadn’t woken up. The doctor said that at this point it was all up to her. That she would wake up when she’s ready.
Her parents and Luke came in the next day early in the morning. They have been staying in my pack since. I haven’t left the hospital because I didn’t want her to wake without me being by her side.
“They came to monitor our little angel, did I tell you that? He or she is just perfect. I don’t know if I want a little boy or girl, but whatever we have is okay with me because they’re part of you” I continue.
The nurse told me to talk to her. Oftentimes patients in comas can hear us only that they can’t reply. At first I felt stupid but then, it made me feel close to her and I just got used to it.
“You have to go home and rest, son” Lucas tells me, walking into the room hand in hand with Hailey.
I guess they’ve resumed their relationship. I only hope that it will be the same for me and Lauren once she wakes up.
“I’ll rest when she wakes up” I simply answer her.
Everyone has been by to see every day. That just shows how much she is loved and cared for.
We sit in silence. I say nothing to her parents. My eyes just stare at her. Never leaving her beautiful face. Her bruises had faded all thanks to her wolves' super healing.
There were so many things I wanted to tell her. So many things I wanted to show. To prove to her. Apart from our kids, she was the center of my world. Nothing else mattered, even my pack.
“We’re leaving…Do you want us to bring you something when we come back?” Hailey asks me awhile later.
“Just coffee” I murmur without taking my eyes from Red’s closed one.
Seconds later I hear the door shut behind me.
I take her hand in mine and kiss it. “I know at the restaurant I didn’t tell you this properly and I should have. Rushing it out the way I did made it seem insincere. It took a while to realize it but I did and by the time I did, you had already left me. You have no idea how I died every day without you by my side. It’s like when you left you took my light and life with you”
“I would lay down my life for you and I don’t want you simply because I needed a Luna like you rudely put it before the accident. I want you because you’re the very air I breathe. I want you because you managed to get past my walls and mash your soul with mine. I want you because there is no me without you”
I take a deep breath. “You were wrong when you said that there was a chance I would want Mayra years later. Let me tell you there isn’t. Even if you push me away and leave, I will still want you. Even if you leave and move on with your life, I will still want you. I will never want Mayra because you’re it for me. Because I love you”
I lay my head on our joined hands feeling the ache in my heart. I want her to wake up. I want her to love me and give me a chance.
I feel her hand squeeze my hand before I hear her rough voice.
“Say it again” she says lowly.
My head whips up so fast I almost snap my neck. Her eyes, though drowsy, were glossy with tears.
“Fuck! You’re awake, thank the goddess…let me call the nurse” I rush to say.
I can’t even explain what I was feeling inside at seeing her awake. Seeing her beautiful eyes staring at me with what I hoped was love.
Before I can press the call button or go get a nurse, her hands grips mine in a vice.
“Say it again, please” she pleads.
I stare in confusion. Wondering what she was telling me to say that until it hits me. I sit back down and get her hand.
“I love you Lauren Ashford” say it.
“You mean it?” she asks, her voice full of emotion.
I smile wide at her. “With every fucking beat of my heart, darling”
I wipe the tears that fall down her face and hug her close to me. Letting my love wash over her. Hoping that she can feel it.
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The readers' comments on the novel: The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren)
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....
I absolutely love Sebastian and Lauren’s story! I wish it didn’t end ?...