The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 117
Mayra
Spending the night with Darren was more than I could’ve hoped for. For the first time since captivity I felt treasured. I felt safe. I felt like I was on the top of the world.
For some insane reason I wanted to stay with him. And if he had asked me to, I probably would have. After I got out of captivity, I thought that I would never let a man touch me. That I will never get close to any man.
With Darren I don’t even know how it happened. One minute we were bumping into each at the hospital when I went to see my therapist, and the next we were falling into bed together.
He managed to get past my defenses and despite myself, a part of me wants more. Wants to be with him.
“Mayra, what are you thinking about?” Alice, my therapist, pulls me back to the present.
“Nothing much” I answered.
It was in the afternoon and I was in one of my therapy sessions. Don’t get me wrong, Alice is a wonderful woman. I just felt like our talks weren’t really helping me like they should.
After all, Raya was still out of control.
“We both know that’s a lie” she smiles.
“Alright, fine, I was thinking about Darren…I spent the night at his place yesterday”
“And…” she urges, leaning forward.
“It was actually really great… I didn’t have nightmares”
She nods her head. She knows what I’m talking about given I told her that I have them. That the memories usually come when I’m most vulnerable. At night.
During the day, I can suppress them but when I’m unconscious that’s a very different story.
“Have you told him about your nightmares…have you shared any of your traumas?”
I look at her like she is crazy. Like she said the most absurd thing in the world.
“Why the hell would I do that?” I ask puzzled.
She sighs as if she’s tired. As if she’s praying to the goddess for patience.
“Mayra, we talked about this…At one point or another you will have to tell the man you decide to date about what happened to you and at this point I’m starting to believe that man is Darren”
I get what she’s saying but she’s also wrong. I’m not planning to ever date. And Darren is definitely not that man. Sure I would love for him to be but I have too much baggage. He needs a she-wolf that is whole. Not one that is broken.
I shake my head but she speaks before I can utter a word.
“Putting that aside, I’m here to help you Mayra, but I can't do that if you don’t work with me. You mentioned a few things here and there but when I try to push deeper you close up. The only thing you’ve mentioned is your nightmares and even then you don’t talk about what they entail.”
“But…” I go to say but she cuts me off
“You never talk about your time in captivity. About what happened to you. You say absolutely nothing but you expect me to help. How am I going to do that if I don’t know the whole story?”
“I know that I…”
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Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....
I absolutely love Sebastian and Lauren’s story! I wish it didn’t end ?...