The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 20
Darren.
I was still in Sebastian’s pack. Staring at nothing in particular. It was after the whole incident had taken place. When Lauren had lost control and attacked Miranda.
After she was tranquilized Sebastian had taken her to their room. While he had ordered Miranda to be thrown into their pack dungeon.
I was completely lost and cold. So fucking cold. How did it come to this? I thought I had everything. My mate and daughter by my side but it all turned out to be a fucking lie.
How could she do this to me? I trusted her. Had given her a second chance after she chose Sebastian ten years ago. So how could she cheat on me? How has everything gone bad?
I hear footsteps behind me but I don’t bother turning. Just continue leaning on the balcony. Staring at the endless darkness.
“You okay Darren?” Brent, my beta and Claire’s mate, asks me.
How do I answer that question? How do I tell him that I didn’t even know what I was feeling? Is that even normal? Being unable to describe your feelings after such a cluster fuck takes place.
I felt numb but I also felt raw at the same time.
“I don’t know man…I just don’t fucking know” I whisper.
He claps my back but I don’t even register it. My mind lost in its misery. I’m an alpha but what I’m feeling right now is crashing me. Stripping me of being the strong leader that I’m supposed to be. I feel weak. Feel pathetic.
“Let’s get you inside. Miranda’s fate will be decided tomorrow” he tells me. Sympathy in his voice.
I hate that. Hate that he’s sympathizing with me. It reminds me of memories I’d forgotten. Reminds me of the first time Miranda broke me. She broke me and I still fucking gave her a chance to do it again.
“You go. I’ll just stay here. I need to clear my head. It’s a mess”
“No. If you’re staying then I’m staying. There’s no way I’m leaving you alone in this” he replies.
He was not only my beta but my best friend, and time and time again he has proven that he’s a great friend.
He tried to warn me when I began seeing Miranda behind Lauren’s back. Told me not to fall for her crap. That she was only with me because Sebastian no longer wanted her. I didn’t listen though. Blinded with the love for her that I had kept hidden. Blinded by the what ifs that I still carried.
For a while, my relationship with him, Claire and that of my parents had been ruined. Because I had been too stubborn to see what they saw. A year later here we are. Miranda having broken me for the second time. This time it’s even worse because I knew what she was deep inside and I still fell for her traps.
What’s the saying; fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. It's a bitter pill to swallow knowing I was the fool that got fooled twice. It fucking hurts.
“Is this how Lauren felt? When I cheated on her?” I ask no one in particular. Brent doesn’t answer, just sighs.
‘This and probably more’ my wolf Kai answers in a small voice. He's more broken than anyone could tell. Our fated mate turned out to be a cheating slut and the woman we left for our mate no longer wants anything to do with us.
We took a chance, giving up Lauren in favor of Miranda and we fucking lost. We lost big time. How am I supposed to survive this? The last time it happened I had Lauren to pull me from the darkness. Right now she won’t even spare me a glance. Her hatred for me burns deep. So deep I doubt she’ll ever forgive me.
And what about the baby? The one Miranda said that Lauren couldn’t carry full term. I didn't know that she was pregnant, but even if I had, I doubt in my state of mind it would have changed anything.
“Did you know about the baby? The child Lauren lost?” I ask.
“Yes” he nods.
“Tell me everything” I pleaded. What else had I missed while I was in a Miranda state of mind? What else had happened while I was too cooped up in Miranda to think about anything but her?
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I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....