The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 5
My new secretary enters my office with a stack of papers. A newspaper and a magazine are part of the stack. Then she quietly leaves after giving me my coffee.
I have only worked with her for a few days. But she’s honestly the best. She does her work efficiently. Arrives on time and she doesn’t gossip. Which suits me fine.
I pick up the magazine needing a distraction. I’ve been cooped up in the office. Trying to catch up on work. The only time I leave is when I have to go get a shower and a change of clothes. Also when I’m visiting Mason.
The front page is about me. I don’t know whether to be angry at them or thankful. Thankful because they’re spreading the message. I’m no longer a doormat to be stepped on.
‘Lauren Smith is back and she’s colder than the Antarctica’ it reads.
Below the headlines there’s a picture of me slapping the guard. It then goes on to talk about what happened that day.
Someone probably sold the story and the image. The person was getting fired. Once I found out who the fuck it was.
“They have no idea just how cold our heart has become” Blue say.
I chuckle at that because it was the damn truth. Our heart has become so cold. It would probably freeze anyone who tries to get near it.
But isn’t that what happens when you’re crushed? You either remain broken or you rise. I didn’t want to remain broken. I didn’t want to continue slowly dying from the pain and heartbreak. I didn’t like the woman I had become.
So I froze my heart. Freezing the pain and hurt deep inside. Where I no longer had to feel it.
Pain changes you and it changed me. I was a naïve fool. Wore my heart on my sleeves for people who didn’t deserve it. Gave all my fucking best.
In the end I was used and then discarded. The same people turned on me and broke me. I wasn’t going to allow that to ever happen again. So I had to kill the old me.
“I need a run” Blue sighs. The wistfulness clear in her voice.
“I know, I’ll find something soon”
Given I was a lone wolf and packless. It was hard for me to run freely. Most lands are territories. Those that are not are owned by humans. Humans who like hunting.
I was looking into getting a house. One with a really big backyard for us to run. One that was also secluded. Where I didn’t have to worry about neighbors seeing a wolf in my compound.
There’s a knock on my door. I tell the person to come in. The moment they do I wish they would drop dead.
“What do you want?” I ask annoyed.
Darren stands in my office looking unsure.
He answers calmly. “I came to see how you’re doing”
I stare at him in disbelief. What was with him and Miranda thinking that we were sort of best friends?
“And why the hell would you do that?”
“We may have gotten a separation but I still care for you. I would have loved for us to remain friends”
This time I laugh. A full belly laugh. While Blue snickers in my head.
He looks so innocently confused. As if he can’t understand why the hell I was laughing.
“Were you my friend when you called me a cunt?” I growl at him.
He goes to say something but I interrupt him. My voice going cold. “Did you care for me when you kicked me out of my daughter’s party? Or when you had your claws digging into my neck? Or when you cheated on me?”
He doesn’t answer me. Just stares as if he can’t find the right words. Like he can’t figure out where the woman he knew disappeared to.
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Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...
The Mayra and Darren story, the ending…it’s like the book isn’t finished. And the typo on the vows need to be fixed, like it’s a copy and paste. They’re were errors, but it wasn’t a bad series. I truly loved Ren and Bash. Now, what about Krystal, the new Oracle....
I absolutely love Sebastian and Lauren’s story! I wish it didn’t end ?...