Sebastian.
These past few weeks have been hectic. The news that werewolves had been captured and experimented on, had rocked the wolf community like an earthquake.
I’ve spent the entire time in the hospital. Waiting for Mayra to wake up. I can’t fucking believe that my fated was alive. That this entire time I thought she was dead, she had actually been in captivity.
Sylvia explained everything to me and then told me that I had a choice to make. I could feel the remnants of the shattered bond between Mayra and me. I feel it trying to break through. Trying to push out the bond I had with Red.
I wanted to leave the hospital. To go check on Red but I couldn’t. Every time I tried to leave, the bond would pull me back here.
The doctor explained that it was a way for the bond to make sure that Mayra healed. That my close proximity to her was helping her a great deal.
“What are we going to do?” Fang asked. “How are we supposed to choose between Lauren and Mayra?”
I saw the moment Red shut me off. The moment she distanced herself from me. I probably made things worse when I snarled at one of my warriors when he tried taking Mayra the day we found them.
I haven’t been able to reach her. She doesn’t pick my fucking calls and her mental blocks are back up. Stronger than ever.
She hasn’t even come to the hospital either to see me, or Mayra or the others. So eventually I just gave up. Deciding it would be better to talk to her face to face.
I rub my chest at the pang I feel there. I know this is causing her pain but if she could only let me explain. Let me get my head straight first.
“Bash?” Fang’s voice cuts through my thoughts.
“I don’t know Fang. I fucking don’t know. Mayra is our fated, but Lauren is our mate. We completed the mating process with her. She wears our mark”
I feel defeated. Feel confused. What am I supposed to do now? My life has just turned to into a shitstorm and for the first time in my fucking life I had no idea what path to take.
The sound of a pained groan brings me back to the present.
Shit! Mayra was waking up.
I press the button for the nurse station just as she opens her eyes. They’re a beautiful honey brown color. I feel like they’re sucking me into their depths.
Fisting my hand. I let my claws dig into the skin of my palm. The pain anchoring.
She looks at me in confusion before her mind registers.
“You’re my mate aren’t you?” she asks timidly.
Now that her eyes aren’t trying to suck me in, I see what’s hidden behind them. The shadows playing there. The fucking pain that still torments her. The brokenness that I have no idea if she’ll ever be able to overcome.
“I’m not sure” I state.
I didn’t want to hurt her but I couldn’t give her hope. Not when I wasn’t sure I would choose her in the end. Not when my fucking mind and heart is still on a certain red head.
She nods her head in understanding. I don’t see pain or jealousy or anything like. Just acceptance.
Her eyes turn distant. “There was a woman. She was there with me every night these past couple of months, I'm assuming. She would always take away some of my pain. She promised to find a way to help me. To help all of us.” She says in a soft voice.
Before I can answer, a nurse enters the room. She sees Mayra awake and goes to call the doctor.
“Her name is Lauren…I’m mated to her” I tell Mayra after the nurse leaves.
“Where is she?”
How the hell am I supposed to tell her that I didn’t know where my mate was? That the minute Lauren realized that Mayra was my mate, she shut me out completely.
I’m saved from answering by the doctor. After a brief introduction, he begins checking her.
“Everything seems to be going great.” He begins. “However I am still worried about not only your mental health and possible traumas but also your wolf. She doesn’t seem to be doing that well.”
Mayra doesn’t react. Almost as if she knew this was coming.
The bond keeps pulling me to her. Wanting me to comfort her. To wrap my hands around her and just hold her, but I resist.
I couldn’t do that to Red. Besides, I felt nothing for Mayra except the feelings elicited by the bond. She was basically a stranger.
Comments
The readers' comments on the novel: The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren)
Did a teenager write this? I wanted to like it but it’s overly dramatic and the character arc is non-existent....
I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...