The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren) novel Chapter 99
Lauren
It’s been two weeks since I came back to the city. I booked an appointment the moment I came back and the doctor confirmed that I was four months pregnant.
I was supposed to be brave. I was supposed to let Sebastian know the truth immediately but I haven’t. I am a coward.
I’m afraid of facing him. Afraid of facing the pain I know I will feel when I see him happy with his mate.
“Mommy, can we go visit Jax, please? I have missed him so much” Krystal begs.
We’re in our new apartment and we still haven’t finished unpacking. Everything was set up including the furniture which was delivered last week. Well everything except for our clothes and personal items.
I don’t know why I still haven’t gotten to unpacking. For some reason, I just keep postponing.
“We’ll see” I reply, avoiding her question and comment like a plague.
“That means no” she says sadly.
I sigh tiredly. “That means we’ll see”
I hate seeing her sad and I know she really wants to see Jax but I just need time. It’s already hard losing Sebastian but Jax, he was my boy and now I had no rights to him. I didn’t even know if Sebastian would allow me to see Jax.
Goddess, this was so fucking hard and painful. I rub at my chest. Feeling the loss so deep that it was echoing in my soul.
This was just a cruel twist of fate. I thought I had finally found my happily ever after only to have it ripped from me. It was soul crashing.
Then there was the matter of the baby. How would Sebastian even react? Would he be happy? Or would he think it was bad timing given he had found his mate? Would he accept the baby or would he want nothing to do with him or her?
The last thought brings me more misery. I don’t fucking know how I will react if he said he wanted nothing to do with the baby.
In fact I hadn’t even thought about it. I just assumed that he would want the baby but here I was being forced with the possible reality that he wouldn’t want our child.
“Mommy!” Krystal’s screaming voice penetrates my thoughts.
I focus on her. “Hmm, what?”
I've been spacing out a lot lately. It was starting to freak me out.
“Me too” Midnight says.
“And me three…we’re going to have a baby in five months, you can’t keep spacing out like that. What if you did that and something happens to the baby while you’re lost in thoughts?” Blue chastises me.
They were both happy about the baby, but I didn't know how things would turn out for our child. I mean I have two different beasts. They’re wolves but still different.
“By the way Midnight, will our child be a hybrid? I am a bit confused on this…I mean Sebastian is a werewolf but I have you and Blue and both of you are different so what will our child be?” I ask her.
“Well usually, Fenrir’s spirit is passed down only to the first born of the line. Since this baby will be my first born, the spirit will be passed down to him or her so just like you she’ll have two spirits. On her first shift though the great wolf’s spirit will be taken from them and he or she will go to live with the goddess as they wait for the goddess to choose her next executioner” she explains.
That made a bit of sense.
“So the great wolf’s spirit will remain dormant until he or she first shifts?” I ask.
“Yes, our child will just be a carrier until it’s time for him or her to go and train with the moon goddess. So in the end our baby will only end up with one spirit well that is unless he or she undergoes a betrayal so bad and painful that the goddess decides to gift her the Fenrir's spirit”
Comments
The readers' comments on the novel: The Alpha and His Contract Luna (Lauren)
Did a teenager write this? I wanted to like it but it’s overly dramatic and the character arc is non-existent....
I don't think the the plot for krystals book is something I would like to dark. I would had thought Krystal and something with Jax would have been a better plot....
Finally I'm fucking done author please research heavy topics extensively before writing about them again. When you don’t you often end up victim blaming alot...
I don't even feel sad about Raya fuck her there’s allot of things that trauma is responsible for and letting the people you love die while you enjoy watching isn’t fucking one of them like the authors writing when it comes to these topics are fucking piss fucking put like the victim blaming the dismissal of valid feelings the excuses for the people who hurt her like eww don’t ever touch on subjects like these until you’ve done the appropriate extensive research on these topics. Then ill read your works that touch on these subjects again. The only reason I’m still here is cause ive already started the story....
I knew the goddamn therapist was a fucking weirdo...
Again the therapist is incorrectly saying what’s going on. If Raya took the empirical trauma it’d be Raya that she’d be talking to. Mayra took the emotional AND physical trauma of what’s going on and both Raya and Mayra are experiencing shared mental effects of that trauma with Raya experiencing the effects on the more angered and blaming side. None of this makes Mayra a terrible companion it actually makes Raya a terrible companion if you want to place blame....
Bruh can’t she just get the moon goddess to like give her a new wolf or remove her from the one she got ? She gone be human either fucking way with the way that bitch of a wolf be acting...
The therapist is fixing weird like she was doing so good till she fucking invalidated Mayra’s feelings towards her baby that was forced upon her by her realist that popped up before she was even done healing like what ? Its normal for victims to feel that way towards a rapper baby and what the therapist should have fucking said was yeah Mayra it’s normal to feel that way you’re still haunted by your rapport and haven’t yet healed and it doesn’t help that your daughter looks like him once healed you could make a decision on whether you want to be in her life as her mother or give her up for adoption it’s all up to you but for now you need to focus on healing before attempting to mother a child who looks like your rapist. In the meantime have your child stay with a trusted person so that you can heal and make the correct decision for yourself as a healed woman. But no the therapist says try loving her and being a mother to your rapists child right now even if you haven’t healed yet. Like huh ? You’re fucking weird and the author is weird for this as well. Maybe before writing about a touchy subject please do more research In terms of how to go about the aftermath of trauma and healing because this invalidated a lot of rape victims who hated their children before healing and coming to love and care for them without blame....
We’ll do e. I enjoyed every moment....
Danke :)...